Domestic Discipline with a sprinkle of vanilla!

First off, thanks for the advice/comments on my last post. You guys really put things into perspective for me, and I think know whenever DD takes a backseat, i'll still realize it's there even though I might not see it in that moment. :)

At this current moment, DD is certainly NOT taking a backseat. Colin is Mr.HOH lately, and I have to say, i'm really liking it. Well, i'm liking all of it, except for the fact that it still hurts to sit this afternoon!

When it comes to rules, we pretty much follow the 4 D's, and I just so happened to break a few of those D's recently. Let me backtrack a second, and say that I do NOT normally text and drive. In fact, i've been known to yell at other drivers when I see them doing it, because it really bothers me. Now with that being said, I kind of slipped up.

That's a big NO with Colin. He does not take texting and driving lightly, and he really proved that last night. He kept lecturing, telling me how that definitely falls under the Dangerous category, and it also falls under the disobedience category, because it's one of our rules that I broke. I've also been pretty snappy lately, which he says falls under the disrespect category.

Geez, 3 D's broken. Thankfully, i've been very honest with him, so the dishonesty D is taking a backseat for this one. :)

I'd say last nights spanking, was the most severe yet. He warmed up with his hand for a while, which really hurt and he was nowhere near the end. He also used the wooden paddle, the lexan paddle, the mood paddle, the leather hand thing and finished it up with twenty VERY hard spanks with the strap.

Thankfully he didn't use the bathbrush or hairbrush, but all these other implements were used!

Needless to say, I will NOT be texting and driving, EVER again. I'm sure eventually i'll be snappy again, but I don't think that'll happen for a while either. Here are a few pictures of the results, because Colin is mean like that. :p

I had the day off today, and felt like being productive, but needed a little push, because I was getting kind of frustrated with what I was trying to accomplish. I sent him a text and asked if he could help me with something.

This is the part of the post that gets a little more vanilla in nature, but it does still have a DD aspect to it. :)

"What do you need help with sweetie?" He can be so sweet, even though it was only hours after spanking me, and even managing to get some tears out of me!

Anyway, i've attended college, but still without a degree, because I can't decide what the heeeeck I want to do. Well, i'm 25, and I want a degree before i'm 30, so it's time to get a move on!

I told him I was frustrated and feeling overwhelmed with it, and I just needed his help. He told me to pick four jobs i'd like to go after, and do some research. He wanted me to write down how long it'd take to get the degree I needed for each job, the salary, and the pros and cons.

I still have a lot of work to do, and a lot of researching left, but at least now I have it narrowed down and I have a list of pros/cons written out for the four choices I made. I decided to narrow it down to Dental Hygienist, Social worker, Paralegal, and Diagnostic medical sonography. I'm still unsure, but at least now the pros/cons list is on paper, rather than just being in my head.

I'm hoping he continues to help me, and gives me another goal to complete by a certain time. I want to go back to school SOOO badly, but I get overwhelmed with all the choices so easily, that I really need the motivation and him to push me. I think he'll be able to do that for me. :)

So that's pretty much all I have to report for now. I mentioned the punishment panties in a previous post, and how he wanted to order a pair that said corner time, and a pair that said spank me. Well, he changed his mind and decided we just need one pair, and they're going to say, "Punishment Panties."

Seriously? I've created a monster! We'll probably be ordering them soon, but i'm totally fine with putting it off as long as possible!

We'll most likely have this Saturday (at least part of it) to ourselves, so Submissive Saturday might happen, but we'll see. I'm curious to hear what he'll decide to focus on if we do get a chance to do it.

Very random, but found this picture/quote and absolutely love it, so figured why not wrap up the post by sharing it. :) Enjoy!

Where are you DD & Punishment Panties.

I haven't written in about a week, so I really want to write a post, but I don't have much to say.

Of course, I say that now, but then once I get going, i'll probably write a novel. Bare with me (yes pun intended, of course) and we'll see where this goes. I'm sure this post is going to jump all over the place.

About a week ago, I wrote that we were in a bit of a lull when it comes to DD, and to be honest, we're still stuck in that rut. I'm not sure how to go about getting it back, and part of me almost doesn't want to. I've been pretty far from submissive lately, but i'm not really sure why. Nothing specific has happened that has caused me to be less submissive, or Colin to be less Dominant, it's just kind of .. happening right now.

I can't say it's like that every day, because there are days where it does feel like TTWD is going on, but i'd say 90 percent of the time lately, it just isn't there. We're not fighting, or arguing, or anything like that. DD is just not there.

He asked me to vacuum the other day, while he was watching tv, and even though it's a very little thing, I think we both felt the DD there. We had a little mini convo that went something along the lines of this:

C: It turns me on when you do stuff like this.
K: What? All i'm doing is vacuuming.
C: Yes, but you're doing it for me.

I then went on to make him dinner, and I really love doing those little things. For him. That's part of being submissive that I love. Doing little things for him, it makes me feel good to do those things, because he does SO MUCH for me.

Of course he then turned into Joey from FRIENDS. For anyone who watches that show, ya know how Joey can turn anything and everything into something dirty? Well that's what Colin does.

We were sitting eating dinner, and I said how the meatloaf was moist. What does he say?

C: It can always be more moist.

Then he does that little smirk. Then after dinner, I was full but not satisfied and was trying to explain that feeling to him.

K: I'm full, but not satisfied. My mouth needs something.
C: Oh i've got something for your mouth.

I just shook my head, and went back to my show. Secretly smiling at what a dork he is.

He also came up with a new twist for punishments. He said he's going to order a pair of panties that say "Corner Time" on the butt, for when i'm in the corner, and another pair that says something spanking related, for when I earn a spanking.

I have to admit, that'd be pretty darn effective! I can just imagine him telling me to go put on a certain pair of panties before a punishment. YIKES! It'd make the punishment 10x more effective.

But shhhh, we won't tell him that! Our little secret. :)

So, like I said, DD has been present a little bit, but for the most part.. not so much. It's no ones fault either. He's not doing anything wrong, i'm not doing anything wrong, it's just not .. there.

I'm kinda .. blah about it. Feeling a bit down, and wishing it were more present, but keep trying to remind myself that these ups and downs seem to happen. It goes through phases, and eventually it'll go back to being up. :)

Has anyone else gone through this kind of phase? Where no one is really doing anything wrong, but the DD aspect is lacking? Any idea what to do to start it back up? I do miss it, and as much as it's a nice break from it, I really do want it back.