When Spanking Isn't an Option.

Hi everyone!

I know this is probably the hundredth time I've said this in the past few months - but yes, I've been MIA from blog land once again. I swear I always tell myself I'm going to start keeping up with it like I used to, but it's SO hard lately. Mainly because I have NO time, but also because I've had no clue what to write about.

Anyway, I'm back .. for now. I can't say updates will be all the time, but I really am hoping to get on here more often. I really miss reading everyones blogs - and after I write this entry, I'll be catching up to see how everyone is doing. :)

So as for Colin and I? Well, it's been rocky to say the least. We haven't been bad, or in a negative place, or anything like that. But I certainly can't say DD has been easy these past few months.

I've mentioned Colin's shoulder issues before, but it's been worse than ever lately. It bothers him pretty much 24/7 and it's been difficult to find out what's wrong with it, and how to treat it.

Good news is, he finally got a diagnosis. Well two actually. He has carpal tunnel in his wrist, and he has a an abnormally large bone spur in his shoulder.

Bad news? It requires two surgeries, and a good amount of recovery time - as well as wearing a sling for about a month. I'm so so so SO thrilled for him, because other doctors have told us there was nothing they could see on xrays, mris, etc - so he had no relief, no way of helping the pain or anything. Now, he finally knows it's not all in his head, there is an actual problem, and a way of fixing it! I'll be so happy for him once it's all done, and the pain isn't bothering him all the time.

It'll be hard though, because it's his dominant hand/arm that will be getting the surgery. His job requires heavy lifting most of the time so he may have to take some time off of work, it will be hard financially, he won't be able to drive for a little bit, oh and not to mention it's his spanking arm. :p


You would think I'd be celebrating that his spanking arm will be out of commission for about a month, but really I'm praying it doesn't send us/DD spiraling backwards a million steps. He's tried using his other arm a couple times, and it's okay - but it doesn't totally do the trick. Before he gets the surgery, there will be times his arm feels okay and he's able to do those quick, yet very hard type of spankings, so that's a plus (I think?) But those long, drawn out spankings that, yes I admit, I do need from time to time, aren't going to be happening for a while.

We know there are non spanking punishments out there as well, but for some reason there's a consistency issue with those type of punishments. Well, there hasn't been lately, that's for sure. Especially when it comes to lecturing and calling me out on not following the rules. But there are times when he doesn't pay as much as attention to things as I'd like/need.

It's not that he doesn't care enough or anything like that, but he works like crazy, he's always got a million things on his mind, and of course, sometimes it's just hard to be consistent. Life likes to get in the way.

I think we're both going to have to give and take a bit. He's going to have to try and be extra consistent with non spanking punishments, and I'm going to have to be extra submissive when he dishes out those punishments. I'm also going to have to be patient and just realize that just because things may be different for a month or so, it doesn't mean we will take steps backwards or lose DD completely.

I've mentioned in this blog previously, that before Colin - I had been spanked by a couple of other people. Colin actually suggested talking to those people and seeing if someone would be able to 'help out' if there's ever a time that nothing besides a good old fashioned spanking will do the trick. I wasn't sure if I was going to mention that here or not, because I know some people would think that was absolutely crazy, and I get that. But, what is this blog for, if not to be honest and open and just kind of get my thoughts into words on a screen. I go back and forth on that option, but if it was a person I trusted, purely platonic discipline, and Colin was all for it - especially if it'd make things a little easier, then I guess why not at least be open to it.

We'll see.

On the plus side, as a couple, we've been great. We've been playful and silly together a lot recently, and that really is my favorite thing about Colin - that we can be goofy together. Wrestling, laughing, just loving each other. I'm so thankful for him - bad shoulder or not. ;)

I do have to say, he has been pretty HOHy lately. I was out with a friend the other night and we were talking and talking and talking. I noticed a couple texts/calls from Colin, but didn't want to interrupt our conversation to respond. (Stupid, I know!) About an hour later, when I finally called him - he wasn't too happy. I got quite the lecture on how he was so nervous, wondering if I was okay. How I NEED to check in during times like that. He told me he understands that sometimes conversations can go on and on, but it's not too hard to send a quick text and let him know I'm okay so he doesn't continue to worry. I also got one of those quick, but pretty darn hard type spankings. I didn't think 24 swats accompanied by a lecture where I was made to keep eye contact, would be as effective as it was! Let's just say I'll make sure to text him back or answer his phone call right away next time!

Have any of you ever had to deal with the HOH having some sort of injury where spanking just wasn't an option? If so, any suggestions? They'd be very much appreciated by both of us. :)

So that's about it for now.. I'm sorry this post was kind of all over the place, and a bunch of rambling, but I think I just really needed to write. I have/had a lot of thoughts in my head, and I just needed a place to .. get it all out. :)

Hopefully the next post will be less rambling!

Miss hearing from everyone & hope everyone is doing well!