Assignments, 'In the meantime' punishments, and a few secrets.

Colin and I have been pretty crazy busy lately, so we were going through another one of those times when DD/Ds kind of took a backseat. It was still present, but I just didn't .. feel it, as much as I would have liked to.

I decided to talk to him about it, and I brought up the idea of having assignments once in a while. Well, he really liked that idea, and what I thought would be assignments once every couple weeks or so, has turned into more assignments than i'd like! Well okay, actually it's more of a love/hate kind of relationship I have with these assignments.

He's really shown his .. HOH-yness (I think that should officially be a word - dictionary definition and all!) lately and i've really enjoyed seeing/feeling that, as well as feeling more submissive lately. The assignments haven't been anything crazy, just little things like cleaning out the fridge, or looking up something for him online. Little things like that, but it's made a big difference in my frame of mind lately.

We went on a little mini vacation this past weekend, and he was even HOHy then. One morning we woke up, and right before we went to get breakfast I was being a bit ..difficult. I am NOT a morning person, and I was pretty grumpy. He told me to bend over the bed, and he gave me about 6 smacks with his hand. I asked what that was for, and he said, "Just a reminder to behave today..understand?" Even those 6 little smacks with his hand stung! Plus it did the trick, and put me in that submissive mind set. I right away answered with, "Yes Sir." If he had told me to behave and asked if I understood, five minutes before that, I probably would have rolled my eyes and told him to hush!

Ive been getting, "the look" quite often. I picked this one because it actually reminds me a bit of Colins look. He's got the scruff going on too.

I've done a few things to deserve punishment lately, but between working late, not feeling great, and just having a ton to do, it hasn't worked out where those punishments have been delivered. We had a few issues, where a week went by and we finally had time to do the punishment, but I was just NOT in the right headspace after that time had passed. He said he understands, but that it's not right to just let the punishment go when that happens either, so we came up with something we call, "in the meantime punishments." I've been an angel lately (see the halo shining?) so we haven't tried out this method yet, but basically what he said is that if i'm not doing something i'm supposed to be doing, or if i'm disrespectful, break a rule, etc, and he can't deal with it at the moment, or he's at work or something, he's going to have me do something like write an essay, or corner time, but it doesn't mean I won't get the spanking when we have the time.

This way, I see that it's being dealt with, and it doesn't seem like he's just putting it on the back burner, yet he can still do the actual spanking when things settle down and we have the time.

Things certainly aren't perfect, but I don't expect them to ever be. Where's the fun in that? I think we're in a good spot right now though, and I just really wholeheartedly trust him being the "Leader," in this dynamic. He always tells me to just let go, and i'm trying, because I really do want to. I really do love it .. more so when my butt isn't sore. ;)

He didn't write this, I just found it on the internet, but it's basically what he's always telling me.

On the car ride to our mini vaca, I also came clean about some stuff. I won't go into too many details, but years ago, before I was able to be open with him about spanking, DD, etc, I was infatuated with the idea of it, yet I had no .. outlet. Wellll, like a lot of spankos I know, I would search the internet any chance I got. Spanking chat rooms, spanking forums, etc. I finally got the courage to actually attend a spanking party (there's something for a future blog post!) and I also met with a couple people I had met online .. for spankings. Nothing sexual, or anything like that. Just very platonic, discipline type spankings. Since i'm all for sharing my secrets lately, i'll let you guys in on one too - one person I met for a spanking was actually a female!

Yup, i've been in this situation before.

Anywayyyyy, I hated keeping this stuff from him, but I had always been too embarrassed to tell him. Since he wasn't interested in spanking in the sense I was at first, I didn't know if he'd get it, or if he'd think I was weird, or what.

Thankfully now that Mr.Used to be vanilla, is pretty much a full fledged spanko, he totally got it. He was a little upset that I had kept it from him for so long, but he understood why and was happy I was finally able to tell him. Talk about a huge relief and a weight lifted off my shoulders. I think that's a reason I feel so happy with us lately also, because I was able to tell him those secrets. Sure felt good to get it all out there.

So there's an update on us. I just am so happy with the fact that he's so happy with DD/Ds and that he really seems to .. get it. I went so long without telling him about this dynamic, because I was so scared of his reaction, and i'm just so lucky that he's such an understanding guy. So if you read this, thank you for being so open to all this, Sir.... and remember how sweet I am next time i'm across your knee for being a brat. ;)

I also want to add, my thoughts and prayers go out to everyone who was affected by 9/11. Such a horrible day. We'll never forget!