Reigniting the DD flame

How has it been over two months since my last entry in this blog?!

There have been so many times I've wanted to write an entry, but every time I went to do it, something came up. I finally decided I miss it so much, that I have to make time to get back into blogging.

Things have been pretty crazy since my last entry for both Colin and I. First thing to mention is we added a new addition to our family. Nooo, not a baby yet .. but a kitten! He's a little ball of energy, and can be such a little pain, but he is also so cuddly and sweet, and just so freakin' adorable! He was just jumping all over the keyboard, making it impossible to type, but now he's cuddled up next to me, sleeping, so I finally have the keyboard to myself!

Other thing keeping us busy is work. September through March or April is his busiest time for work, and I actually started working for the same company, so it's now busy for me as well. It's nice because it's not as much of a struggle money wise as it usually is for us, but at the same time, it makes DD/Ds pretty impossible.

To be completely honest, there has been very little, if any, DD type stuff going on with us. Unfortunately, it kind of faded into the background the last few months. It's weird, because part of me really misses it, but another part of me has been kind of relieved in a weird way.

There were times that DD/Ds felt like more work than it was supposed to be. I know it takes a lot of work to keep it going, and it's not always easy, but it just felt like .. too much. I think Colin might have felt the same way. I guess a bit of a break was a good thing for us.

That being said, I was wondering the other day if DD was .. done for us. We hadn't talked about it in a while, and I just didn't know where we stood with it.

I went on vacation with my family for a week, and Colin stayed home for work. Being away really really made me miss it. I no longer felt relieved, or wanted anymore of a break. I really wanted the DD/Ds aspect back in our relationship.

I sort of mentioned it to Colin while I was away, and when I came back he said we'd be having a long discussion about things. Part of me wanted to push the subject, and have the conversation then and just get things back on track, but I decided to leave it in his hands. He was aware of how I felt, and I wanted to see if he would follow through. I trusted him to take care of things.

So I've been patient, he's been insanely busy, but today he told me he made a list of things we need to talk about and we'd be having that conversation tonight, as long as he gets home at a decent hour.

I'm happy that he wants things back on track as well. I think life got in the way, and neither of us really pushed to keep things going - but in the end, I think it was a good thing. I think we'll get back to how we were, and end up being even better than ever in our DD/Ds relationship. We'll find what works for us, and make this lifestyle our own. :)

Has anyone else gone through anything like this before? Where DD or Ds just kind of faded away. No one did anything to mess it up, or to end it, but it just sort of stopped for a while? Were you able to start it back up again?

It's always been hard for me to just let go, and let him take the lead. Usually I end up trying to make things go my way. How I envision it going. This time, I'm letting go. I'm trusting him to be the HOH and to get us where we need to be. I'm anxious, and excited, to see what happens. :)

I'm also going to try my hardest to get back into regular blogging. I really miss reading everyones blogs and seeing how everyone is doing. Going to catch up on that right now!

I also saw that it's almost LoL day!!! Yay! I'm happy that I came back to blogland in time for that. I can't wait. :) All you lurkers out there, get ready with some questions or comments - I'll try to think of something to make it fun!