Friday, November 13, 2015

Happy LOL Day!!!! :)

Yay, I was so worried I had missed LOL Day. So happy to still be able to make a post for it.

In case you don't know what LOL day is, it's a day about our lurkers! The ones who hide behind the shadows and read, but don't know if they should speak up or not. The ones who might have gone to make a comment before, but decided not to post it. Anyone with questions, or who just wants to de-lurk and start being "active" in this amazing community. Come out from the shadows, and leave me a comment. Tell me a little bit about you. Ask me any questions you have for me. Any questions you have for Colin. Or just simply say hi!

I'd love to hear from you. :) Maybe make today the day to start your own blog if you're ready. I'd love to read about your journey.

Of course, I always have to add a little incentive - and since I didn't ever get to do what was supposed to be done last lol day, this time I PROMISE it will get done.. in a timely manner!! Colin promises too. :)

So for every comment that is posted by a non lurker, I'll get 1 spank.

Every comment posted by an actual lurker, will get me 2 spanks.

You guys can even vote on the implement!! Here are some options:

1.) His hand.
2.) Wooden spoon.
3.) Leather strap.
4.) Wooden paddle with holes
5.) Wooden paddle without holes.
6.) Hairbrush.
7.) Colins choice.
8.) Kenzies choice. <-- My personal favorite option. :)

So don't be shy, let me hear from you today!! :)

Also stop on over at Hermiones Blog to see a great list of other bloggers to check out!

Tuesday, November 3, 2015

30 Days of Submission & Submissive questions

Hi everyone!!

Ugh, it's been forever - what else is new right? I swear one of these days I will get back to semi regular blogging.

Anyway, hope everyone is having a lovely fall! I'm anxiously awaiting all the craziness that the upcoming holidays bring!

Colin and I are doing pretty good. We actually decided to do this 30 Day of Submission thing. Actually, he made it 31 days because he couldn't narrow the activities down to 30. It basically consists of two different things..

1.) 31 Days of a different submissive activity each day.

It started out amazingly. Really had me in the right mind set, had him super Dom-y and had us both just in really good places. About half way through, good old life decided to get in the way and gave us a few hurdles to get through. I mean one really can't hide clothespins under her shirt while in an office with other people crowded around. ;)

So, once we missed an assignment here, and he was lenient on an assignment there - I kind of got really down and just sort of blah. Don't get me wrong, we're still sort of on track, and I'm trying to not let the assignments that didn't happen, keep me from completing the assignments I still have, but I'm just in an off mood for some reason. Part of me doesn't even want anything to do with Ds or DD right now, and I'm really not sure why. It's probably hormones, because when don't they mess shit up? ;) But, we'll see - I'm going to stick it out and make it to the end of the 31 days. Colin has been great with trying to keep things running as smoothly as possible, while working 60-70 hour weeks and trying to balance my need for gentle dominance with my even stronger need for his stern dominance. I can be a handful and harder than a rubiks cube to figure out at times, so props to him for being able to figure me out most of the time. <3


2.) There's this thing out there on blogs called 30 Days of Submission, or 30 Questions of Submissions. Basically just like the name says, it's 30 Days of questions having to do with submission. Every day at 3pm I have to send him the answer to that days questions. The first couple days I forgot, and the damn holed paddle and strap did a darn good job at making sure I remembered from there on out!! There are a couple of questions that really get me thinking, and some I might even make a post out of sometime.

Aside from that, my other new obsession is tumblr! I think it's so much fun and such a great tool to see what really interests your Dom/Hoh/tih/sub/etc. Colin has one too, so it's been fun to see what kind of stuff he reposts.

If anyone has tumblr, mine is and
Colins is

Feel free to follow there so I can follow back, or leave a comment or email with your tumblr link. Once in a while he has me post some original stuff, soooo if you don't want to see any of that, don't look there. ;)

Time to go catch up on blogs, yay!

Tuesday, August 25, 2015

Shut-up and Just Spank Me!

Hi!! So I was in the mood to write some more Dr.Seuss spanko version-y stuff, but nothing was giving me too much inspiration. I started listening to music, and all of a sudden a song came on, and a light bulb went off!

I'm sure you've heard of the song, Shut up and Dance? If not, it's been pretty popular this summer on the radio and its a pretty catchy song. The song is great left the way it is, but I felt the need to change it around a bit. If you're wondering what my version is about, well .. see Matt Bomer below.

Little disclaimer before I start *I would never tell Colin to shut up and spank me. First of all, If I said shut-up (especially if I was already in trouble) I probably wouldn't sit too comfortably. Second of all, I'm just sweet and would never say anything like that. ;)

I'll include the video so you can listen to it while reading the spanko version!

Oh don't you dare look down, you keep your eyes on me!
He said no holding back, I said shut-up and just spank me.
Young lady, you'll behave, you'll see.
I said blah blah, shut-up and just spank me.

I was a victim of his might,
He had some sort of Dominant kryptonite.
Helpless to the brush, don't put up a fight.
Oh, just hold it together,
It'll feel just like a feather.

He grabbed the brush,
I don't know how this happened.
He raised it up and he said

Oh don't you dare look down, you keep your eyes on me!
He said no holding back, I said shut-up and just spank me.
Young lady, you'll behave, you'll see.
I said, blah blah, shut-up and just spank me.

A pair of jeans and some red panties,
about to go over both of his knees.
I felt it in my butt as he paddled me.
Oh just hold it together,
not feelin' like a feather.

He grabbed my arm,
I don't know how it happened.
He held it down and he said

Oh don't you dare look down, you keep your eyes on me.
He said no reaching back, I said shut-up and just spank me!
Young lady, you'll behave, you'll see.
I said, blah blah, shut-up and just spank me.

Oh, come on girl!

The strap is next,
No, I don't want that future.
I realized, this was my last chance.

He raised the brush,
I don't know how this happened.
He smacked it down and he said

Oh don't you dare look down, you keep your eyes on me.
He said, a few more whacks. I said no more, Sir I'm sorrryy!
Oh please, I will behave you'll see.
I said, owww owww, now please stop spanking me!

Hope you enjoyed it. :)

Tuesday, July 21, 2015

My perfect HOH isn't from a book or a movie

Hi everyone!! Ugh, I've really missed this blog! Things have been so busy lately and I really haven't had any time to get on here. To be honest, I also just didn't really have much inspiration, and I felt as if I was always writing about the ups and downs going on and blah blah blah. I kinda figured everyone was getting tired of reading the same old stuff, and just felt as if I didn't have much to say.

Well I still don't have anything to say that's completely different than what I used to write about, but I figured who cares. This blog used to help me SO much. It was a way to get my feelings out, a way for Colin to really know how I was feeling, and a way to keep connected with some people. SOO - I might not say the most interesting, or useful things.. but here I am. Back, and ready to start writing again. Writing AND reading.. I need to catch up with everyone and their blogs, and I'm so sorry for being so out of the loop!!

So, what's new with us. Well, we're still going through the struggles of DD. The ups, the downs, the highs, the lows, and all the damn twists and turns that seem to always be there. We've had a few of those break through moments, whether it be a spanking, or just a simple conversation, and I think we've both learned a lot about ourselves and each other. One thing I learned is that I came into this thing with all these crazy expectations. I had done research, watched videos, read books, etc, and had the perfect idea of what DD was supposed to be. What the perfect HOH was supposed to be. Basically how perfect this lifestyle was supposed to be. A few years into this, I feel like the best piece of advice I could give to someone new is to forget the expectations!

Yes, you need to know what interests you. What you like, what you don't like. What you want to explore, what your limits are, etc. BUT don't make up this perfect Dom/HOH in your head and expect your guy to just snap his fingers and turn into him. I'm so extremely lucky that Colin was so open to this lifestyle, and so open to learning all about it. I've come to realize that my perfect HOH isn't someone out of a book, or a video, but instead it's Colin. It's the man that is so willing to figure this out with me, and go through this crazy ride with me. He may not be perfect, I know I'm far from perfect, and we both have A LOT of things to work on, but I wouldn't want anyone else and he's perfect for me!

I'm not saying I don't still have my moments where I just want to give up on DD, and where I'm emotionally drained.. because there are still plenty of those. The difference is that I know eventually we will get there. We will find what works for us. We'll go through a whole lot more twists and turns, but we'll get through them. I've come to really appreciate the gentle Dominance that seems to come so naturally for him. Playing with my hair, holding me, comforting me, really just loving me. That's not to say I don't crave the other side of his Dominance as well - the strict, non lenient type of Dominance, but I know he has that side too. I just need to see it a little bit more. ;)

So basically, I just want to say thank you to Colin for being so willing, so open, and MY perfect hoh. I know I can be difficult and a pain in the butt at times, but just know that I appreciate you so much.

On another note - we got to meet up with some DD friends again for a few nights and I can't even put into words how amazing those get togethers are. The people we've met have turned into family, and I honestly couldn't ask for a better support system. We're able to share vanilla times, have crazy DD conversations, openly talk about spanking, and laugh practically the whole time we're together. I'm so lucky to have met such great people through such a crazy topic.

Sorry for the kinda sappy post, but It's just how I was feeling tonight. I think for the next post it's time for some Dr. Seuss spanking poetry - SOOO what poem would you like to see turned into a spanko version? If you guys have any suggestions, I'll use one of them for my next post!

Monday, March 23, 2015

You had questions, I have answers! :)

Ok.. so I didn't exactly reach my goal and get back to blogging by Friday, buuuut it is Monday, so I'm glad I was able to get back here today. :)

I started a 30 day diet this past Wednesday, and I'm so excited! It was tough at first, still is tough from time to time, but the results make it SO worth it! 9 lbs so far! Yay! Basically two meals are shakes (which taste like cake by the way) and then you have a 600 calorie dinner with healthy foods. You have to drink a ton of water, and there are some little snack things a couple times throughout the day to make it easier.

I'm also going to start getting to the gym this week, so hopefully the results will end up even better!

The best part is that Colin is going to do it with me!!! It will make it so much easier for both of us to be doing it together. Plus we have some little incentives for each other to make it more fun.

Other than that, DD is going okay. We still have the ups and downs, but it's better than it was before. He's been great so far helping me stick to the diet, now I just need to see a little more sterness/less leniency. ;)

Aside from that, not much else is new. Thought I'd take the time to answer some questions I got on the last post. Rather than answering individual comments, I'll just answer them here.

DelFonte asked:

Where we are with DD/TTWD and if we're planning any exciting holidays.

I somewhat answered the DD question above, but we're doing pretty good. We have some work to do, and life is certainly still getting in the way, but I'd say we're in a good spot right now. As for holidays, nothing too soon unfortunately, but hopefully a fun get together in the summer with some DD friends! I need a vacation asap.. somewhere warm!!

Blondie asked:

Do we see a time (or age) when the DD is not necessary, and/or the spankings end?

I say... no way, lol. We'll be one hundred years old and he'll still be carrying a wooden spoon in his back pocket. ;) I think (and hope) it will always be a part of our marriage. We're fine without it, but I just think we're so much better with it.

Colin said: I haven't thought about it much. I can't see the spankings ever ending, and I always think DD will be there. There may be ups and downs, or it might slow down, but I don't see it ever going away permanently. More challenges will come up as we get older, kids, etc, but it'll still be there.

Julia asked:

What I thought of the 50 Shades movie.

Honestly, I was pleasantly surprised and can say I enjoyed it. There were parts that pissed me off, and the main actress annoyed the crap out of me for the most part, but the actor who played Christian was wayyy hotter than I thought he was before the movie. It was fun to go see something different, that somewhat shows (even though it's in a skewed messed up way) spanking, and a D/s kind of thing. It annoys me that they pretty much say Christian is the way he is because of a messed up childhood, but all in all.. it was good entertainment and I'm excited for the second one!

Leigh asked:

When is life going to get back to normal so I can visit more often?

Lol, hopefully SOON! ASAP! Work is slowing down, but other things are picking up, so it'll be a tough balance, but I think I'll have more time to come visit than I have lately! :)

SheandHim asked:

What is one place I'd love to shop if money wasn't an object? And, what is my favorite kind of implement for play?

The shopping question is not fair.. I can't pick one place!! Lol, Colin will tell you I'm a ridiculous shopper. I especially love makeup and clothes, so if money wasn't an object I'd so crazy at either Sephora or Urban outfitters!

As for the implement.. I love the belt. There's just something really sexy about it!

Roz asked:

What direction would I like to see my dynamic take, and who is someone I admire and why?

I'd love for ttwd to be present more often. When it comes to little things such as deciding where we eat, or what movie we're going to see. I guess I'd really like for him to have more of a say in every day things. I guess just more Dominance from him, and more submission from me to sum it up. :)

As for who I admire? My parents. I'm so lucky to have such amazing, supportive, loving parents. Honestly, I can't even put into words what they mean to me. Also, Colin. He works so hard, is so supportive, loyal, caring, and just an amazing man who I have so much respect for.

Thanks everyone for the questions! There's still a little bit time left in March, so if anyone has any other questions for either of us, feel free to ask. :)

Tuesday, March 17, 2015

Back just in time for question month! :)

Hi everyone!

Like the past ten(ish) blog entries of mine have said ... it's been a while!!

I'm so over crazy work schedules and ready to have some days off and time to devote to blog land!

Things seem like they're starting to slow down a bit, so hopefully (fingers crossed) I'll be able to write more, and visit other blogs more as well!

I miss everyone!!!

Anyway, I'll keep it short for now and hopefully on Friday will have time for a better update.. but I want to spend some time on others blogs right now so I can catch up!

BUUUUT before I go - I see it's question month .. soooo Colin and I will both be happy to answer any and all questions!

Make them as juicy as you'd like, or throw some vanilla ones in there as well.

As long as there's nothing that gives away personal info, we'll answer them all. :)

Tuesday, January 13, 2015

Reconnection Spankings & A Fresh Start

Ahhh I've seriously missed this blog! Work and life has just been crazy and unfortunately I haven't had any time to keep up with it. :(

Besides writing in my own blog, I really miss reading how everyone else is doing! I can't wait to catch up over the next couple of days.

Colin and I hit a bit of a rough patch with DD over the past 6 months or so, and I honestly didn't know how (or if at all) we were going to be able to get back into things. Our relationship was still great, but we both knew it was lacking something.

I sort of just accepted the fact that with work going the way it was, and Colin working around 60-80 hours a week it had to take a bit of a back seat. I trusted that eventually we would get back to where we needed to be, but as more time passed, I started to lose hope a little bit. I knew Colin wanted DD, and it wasn't lacking because of interest... but there was just nothing we could really do about it.

Soooo, we sort of let it go for a bit, but then finally decided to sit and talk about it and figure out how to get back on track. He expressed his concerns, I expressed mine, and it really helped us start fresh.

His main thing was that he was over thinking everythingggg. Would the spanking be enough if he got home at 10pm and it was only a 5 minute long thing? Would he live up to the Hoh I needed him to be? Would he be able to be consistent enough? Would I be understanding if things still got in the way from time to time?

For me, it was more about.. will I be able to be submissive after so long? Will I be able to let him take the lead? Will I trust him to take our relationship where it needed to be? Would I be able to be understanding if things did still get in the way, and not get annoyed when it happened?

Basically there were a lot of questions going through our minds that made it difficult to step back into our roles. Once we talked about those things, and were able to be completely open and honest with each other, we were able to figure it out together.

Another thing that helped immensely was that we were lucky enough to have a weekend get together with some old DD friends, while meeting some new ones as well! I honestly can not put into words, how thankful I am to have these people in our lives. They are all SO understanding, helpful, sweet, and most of all genuine. I loveeee when we're all able to get together, and can't wait until the next time! :)

Something that helped us a lot, was that during that weekend, we all discussed some DD questions and were able to listen to different responses, different thoughts, and different perspectives. Honestly, that moment was probably the biggest eye opener for both of us when it comes to our DD relationship. 

Once we got home, Colin decided we needed some role affirmation/maintenance. Starting last night, we'll be having 3 nights worth of spankings. Last night was a great start..other than the fact that I forgot how much that damn paddle hurts!!! I feel like such a weight has been lifted from my shoulders, and I feel closer to Colin than ever. I don't want to jinx it, and I know real life can and WILL get in the way - but I think we'll be able to handle it a lot better from here on out.

He's also mentioned wanting to come up with some assignments/daily activities to keep me feeling submissive. Has anyone else done anything like that? What are some things your hoh has had you do, that helped you feel submissive day to day?

It is seriously a resolution of mine to make more time for this blog, so hopefully I'll be writing again soon. Can't wait to catch up on everyone else's blogs and see how everyone has been. Everyone having a good 2015? Hope it hasn't looked like this picture yet. ;)