Of course, I say that now, but then once I get going, i'll probably write a novel. Bare with me (yes pun intended, of course) and we'll see where this goes. I'm sure this post is going to jump all over the place.
About a week ago, I wrote that we were in a bit of a lull when it comes to DD, and to be honest, we're still stuck in that rut. I'm not sure how to go about getting it back, and part of me almost doesn't want to. I've been pretty far from submissive lately, but i'm not really sure why. Nothing specific has happened that has caused me to be less submissive, or Colin to be less Dominant, it's just kind of .. happening right now.
I can't say it's like that every day, because there are days where it does feel like TTWD is going on, but i'd say 90 percent of the time lately, it just isn't there. We're not fighting, or arguing, or anything like that. DD is just not there.
He asked me to vacuum the other day, while he was watching tv, and even though it's a very little thing, I think we both felt the DD there. We had a little mini convo that went something along the lines of this:
C: It turns me on when you do stuff like this.
K: What? All i'm doing is vacuuming.
C: Yes, but you're doing it for me.
I then went on to make him dinner, and I really love doing those little things. For him. That's part of being submissive that I love. Doing little things for him, it makes me feel good to do those things, because he does SO MUCH for me.
Of course he then turned into Joey from FRIENDS. For anyone who watches that show, ya know how Joey can turn anything and everything into something dirty? Well that's what Colin does.
We were sitting eating dinner, and I said how the meatloaf was moist. What does he say?
C: It can always be more moist.
Then he does that little smirk. Then after dinner, I was full but not satisfied and was trying to explain that feeling to him.
K: I'm full, but not satisfied. My mouth needs something.
C: Oh i've got something for your mouth.
I just shook my head, and went back to my show. Secretly smiling at what a dork he is.
He also came up with a new twist for punishments. He said he's going to order a pair of panties that say "Corner Time" on the butt, for when i'm in the corner, and another pair that says something spanking related, for when I earn a spanking.
I have to admit, that'd be pretty darn effective! I can just imagine him telling me to go put on a certain pair of panties before a punishment. YIKES! It'd make the punishment 10x more effective.
So, like I said, DD has been present a little bit, but for the most part.. not so much. It's no ones fault either. He's not doing anything wrong, i'm not doing anything wrong, it's just not .. there.
I'm kinda .. blah about it. Feeling a bit down, and wishing it were more present, but keep trying to remind myself that these ups and downs seem to happen. It goes through phases, and eventually it'll go back to being up. :)
Has anyone else gone through this kind of phase? Where no one is really doing anything wrong, but the DD aspect is lacking? Any idea what to do to start it back up? I do miss it, and as much as it's a nice break from it, I really do want it back.
It mist be going around Kenzie. We are in the same place. Sorry, don't have any answers for you but if you get any good suggestions please feel free to share.. Love the punishment panties.
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Thanks Bonnie, and i'm sorry you guys were going through this as well. I hope things have started to look up for you two! The comments on this post really helped me. :)
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ReplyDeleteI know how you feel. Not a lot has been going on with us either. In the last two weeks there's only been one stress relief spanking, other then that, not much. I wonder if we're just so comfortable with this lifestyle and not a huge need to talk about it everyday is why it seems like there's not much going on. It's just how we live, the newness of it is going away. At least that's how I feel.
Although, you can always break a few huge rules and see what happens! Lol just kidding
Hugs,
Kim
Yup, I agree completely .. the newness of it is just kind of disappearing, but we're still left with the great dynamic of DD. :)
DeleteHaha, you break some rules and let me know how it works out. :p
Hey Kenzie :)
ReplyDeleteI think when typed becomes part of life and you don't have to work at it, it feels like its missing. But it's not, it's just become everyday. We have these times and then I sit and think, we'll I haven't done anything to earns spanking, so that's why nothing has happened. Those are times that either me or Balu suggests a connection spanking or it becomes part of foreplay ;) or one of us just wants to spank, just because lol
Hugs x
Lol, i've brought up reconnection type spankings to him, and I think they will become part of our dynamic soon. :) Thanks Missy!
Deletemaybe that's the whole point - you've settled into a nice lull becuase no one is acting up? LOL
ReplyDeletei felt that way at one point, but i can't remember what happened n how we ended up here... i suppose just acknowledging that despite there not being Much ACTIVE ttwd around there is still an undercurrent you know?
there's always spanking here... maintenance and reminders and what not... so it's never totally gone.
You're right, that undercurrent to it still exists, and I have to remember that. :)
DeleteKenzie,
ReplyDeleteI really think you guys are just settling it and it is just becoming more of a regular thing instead of how it was before. Maybe this ttwd thread has successfully woven itself into your routine?
And, I had to smirk at the Joey comment, lol. I love that character on Friends, and DH does that all the time too, saying totally inappropriate things, comparing something to something sexual, and I am just left shaking my head, rolling my eyes, but smiling.
I think most men have a little bit of Joey Tribbiani in them. Gosh that sounded SO wrong, lol.
DeleteAnd yes, it has seemed to weave it's way into our daily routine. :)
My scene name is based on the Joey character.
ReplyDeleteI cannot offer advice on DD.
Hug,
Joey
You're just as awesome as the Joey from friends. :)
DeleteHumm...I think here the need for the spanking part of DD ebbs and flows, but the dynamic underneath is what we try to keep consistent. That said, we are not classic "spankos" so our needs may be different.
ReplyDeleteThe little stuff--the conversations you are having, even the simple fun ones--I think those are important. They keep some of the undertone where it should be, if that makes sense.
At the end of the day, everyone always says it is about communication. Perhaps if you want or need more, you'll need to tell him.
You're right, both about having to communicate it to him, and about how the little convos are so important. They really do keep that dynamic going. Thanks Susie! :)
DeleteHi Kenzie,
ReplyDeleteSorry I am late to this. I think we all have periods where it feels as though there isn't much happening and other times it seems pretty full on. I agree with Missy and Julia. I wonder if the dynamic is becoming part of life. It appears to me that the 'undertones' of the dynamic are there from the fun conversations etc. I love the panties LoL I'm sure that would certainly add something to a spanking LoL
Hugs,
Roz
I think that's exactly what was happening, it was becoming a more natural part of our everyday dynamic. :)
DeleteThanks Roz! And yes, those panties will certainly add something lol
Actually, it sounds like it's very much present. Oh, it may be a bit more in the background rather than in the forefront, but there's an ebb and flow to everything in life, isn't there? ;)
ReplyDeleteVery true, your comments and others on this post really helped put that into perspective. Thank you. :)
DeleteThose panties are really quite menacing, no? ;)
ReplyDeleteWe go through phases in DD. It's kind of a Catch 22. On the one hand, we want the dynamic to just be us, to feel natural, to enjoy one another, and to have fun. And yet on the other, I at least, want a strong DD presence. There are times when it's not there and I feel okay for a while but in time (even if that's a few months) I'll start to crave it again.
I think it's always there in some form, just not always as bold as I may like it. The punishment panties idea sounds like a step in the right direction to me, at least! Other things I do when it feels lacking is I'll ask him about it and also ask if there is anything about me he thinks needs work or anything more I can be doing. Usually by making it a thing that he benefits from, in turn, will benefit me because I'll get the structure I need while he gets the tasks done that he wants.
Hope that helps. I bet it will come around soon. It's only natural to kind of fall in and out of DD, at least in my opinion. I think you're both doing great though :)
Menacing is the perfect word for those panties. :p
DeleteYou're right, it really is a catch 22 in that sense. Thanks for the advice, I think it'll really help. :)
The panties idea is interesting. Lulls can happen and it sounds like you've both been really busy. I think it'll bounce back naturally.
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