My HOH is back & The Fantasy Box!

I don't want to speak too soon, but I really think DD/TTWD is back on track. Or at least on it's way to being back on track!

We had a pretty big slump, and for a while, we just couldn't figure out how to get back into the swing of things. We both wanted DD to continue, but it had taken a backseat for so long and it was hard to start it back up.

I think I was just over thinking it. This weekend we had a little mini vacation and went skiing a couple hours away from home. On the car ride there we started talking a bit about DD, TTWD, spanking, D/s, etc - and I was feeling discouraged because the conversation was just turning into argument after argument. We just couldn't seem to agree on anything.

I was feeling extra vulnerable, and extra emotional, and I really needed him to be extra hoh-y. I remember him saying something that pissed me off, and rather than talking to him respectfully, I just snapped. Yelled at him, told him I was done with the conversation, and proceeded to look out the window, not looking forward to this little mini vacation anymore.

A few minutes later, he said something about how I need to respect him, not talk to him the way I did, etc. It really got to me, and I started thinking about WHY I snapped at him, rather than trying to work it out. I realized that I knew I was going to get upset and start crying, so rather than letting myself cry and get it all out, I bottled it in and turned to anger instead. I apologized, and explained that to him, and he said if I need to cry .. then cry. Not to keep it in and snap at him instead, because it won't do any good.

He said he wanted to do a submissive Saturday, and that for the rest of the day I was to answer with Sir. Whether it be, yes Sir, no Sir, etc - I was to say Sir when he asked me a question. Every time I forgot, it was going to be 10 spanks with whatever implement he decided to use.

He said it would be a good lesson in respect and would hopefully start getting us back on the right track. Things were starting to look up, and I could feel myself becoming more submissive again.

We ended up having an absolutely amazing weekend. On the drive home, I told him that sometimes I just have these moments where I fall in love with him all over again, and this weekend was one of those times. I just felt so happy, so in love, and finally felt content with TTWD again.

At one point, we were waiting for the shuttle to take us to the mountain and a good amount of people were around us. I did something, I can't remember what, but he gave me 'the look.' The look didn't seem to stop me, so he discreetly grabbed hold of my upper arm, pulled me in close to him, and whispered "Behave," into my ear. I instantly turned bright red and stopped doing whatever it was I was doing!

Damn, Mr. Hohy husband is back!

I forgot to say Sir a few times throughout the weekend and on the drive home he let me know it would be taken care of.

"When I say it's time, I don't want any back talk. I want you over my knee, and I want you to submit."
"Yes, Sir."

We relaxed for a bit when we got home, and then he decided it was time for the spanking. He got out the strap, the rose paddle, and the tilt wand thing, and I knew he wasn't playing around.

I was supposed to only get 40 total, but didn't take the spanking quite as well as he liked, so he decided we were going to stop keeping count, and he was going to keep spanking until he decided I learned my lesson.

It wasn't very long, or even very hard, but it seemed to be what we both needed. I mean, I'll admit - I still feel like I need a long, hard, possibly even tears, type of session, but I know it will happen when it needs to.

When he was done, he said, "This really IS a great stress reliever for me. Another reason to do it more often."

Yup, my HOH is back .. and maybe even better than ever. ;)

OH and I wanted to mention something we ordered that I just got in the mail today! I don't know if you guys have ever heard of beauty boxes, like ipsy and birchbox - but basically there are these websites which send out monthly boxes with beauty supplies for a certain amount of money a month. Some are ten, some twenty, etc. Anyway, it's become my new obsession and when I was telling Colin about them, he asked if there was anything like that, but more geared towards adult toys.

I googled it, and sure enough, I came across something called The Fantasy Box. If you're interested, click here and check it out ----> The Fantasy Box.

Basically, it's a box that is delivered once a month, and it has some type of 'fantasy' inside. It comes with a questionnaire for each partner to fill out, and then one person is the leader, other is the follower. Obviously Colin will be the leader for us when we get our fantasy! There are cards for each person with directions on them, and things in the box to fulfill the fantasy on the card. It can be anything from a sweet massage, to a fun kinky kind of session. I'll include a picture of our first box that I just opened!

My first impression is overall a good one! I didn't read the instructions on the "Leader" card, because that's for Colin to read - and for me not to find out about until he gives me the instructions. ;) The instructions on my card (the follower card) tell me to put on the blindfold, get dressed (I'm assuming in that outfit) and wait wherever the leader tells me to wait. Sounds interesting! The little things in the picture that you can't quite make out, are a little vibrator thing, a massage candle, and some lube. I'm not a big fan of the lingerie - it's a weird style, but I'll be wearing it anyway for Colin. I have to say, it looks like SO much fun, and I'm really excited to try it out. Anyway, just thought I'd share the info for anyone who might be interested!

Another thing I'm super excited for - Colin got us tickets to go see the show "Spank! The Fifty Shades Parody," for this Friday night! I have no idea what to expect, but I'm hoping it's funny! I have a feeling it will be. :)

Can't wait to catch up on blogs! I'm sorry I haven't been around much - I had just been really down and took a break from the blogs for a bit. I really miss everyone, and can't wait to see how everyone is doing!