You had questions, I have answers! :)

Ok.. so I didn't exactly reach my goal and get back to blogging by Friday, buuuut it is Monday, so I'm glad I was able to get back here today. :)

I started a 30 day diet this past Wednesday, and I'm so excited! It was tough at first, still is tough from time to time, but the results make it SO worth it! 9 lbs so far! Yay! Basically two meals are shakes (which taste like cake by the way) and then you have a 600 calorie dinner with healthy foods. You have to drink a ton of water, and there are some little snack things a couple times throughout the day to make it easier.

I'm also going to start getting to the gym this week, so hopefully the results will end up even better!

The best part is that Colin is going to do it with me!!! It will make it so much easier for both of us to be doing it together. Plus we have some little incentives for each other to make it more fun.

Other than that, DD is going okay. We still have the ups and downs, but it's better than it was before. He's been great so far helping me stick to the diet, now I just need to see a little more sterness/less leniency. ;)

Aside from that, not much else is new. Thought I'd take the time to answer some questions I got on the last post. Rather than answering individual comments, I'll just answer them here.

DelFonte asked:

Where we are with DD/TTWD and if we're planning any exciting holidays.

I somewhat answered the DD question above, but we're doing pretty good. We have some work to do, and life is certainly still getting in the way, but I'd say we're in a good spot right now. As for holidays, nothing too soon unfortunately, but hopefully a fun get together in the summer with some DD friends! I need a vacation asap.. somewhere warm!!

Blondie asked:

Do we see a time (or age) when the DD is not necessary, and/or the spankings end?

I say... no way, lol. We'll be one hundred years old and he'll still be carrying a wooden spoon in his back pocket. ;) I think (and hope) it will always be a part of our marriage. We're fine without it, but I just think we're so much better with it.

Colin said: I haven't thought about it much. I can't see the spankings ever ending, and I always think DD will be there. There may be ups and downs, or it might slow down, but I don't see it ever going away permanently. More challenges will come up as we get older, kids, etc, but it'll still be there.

Julia asked:

What I thought of the 50 Shades movie.

Honestly, I was pleasantly surprised and can say I enjoyed it. There were parts that pissed me off, and the main actress annoyed the crap out of me for the most part, but the actor who played Christian was wayyy hotter than I thought he was before the movie. It was fun to go see something different, that somewhat shows (even though it's in a skewed messed up way) spanking, and a D/s kind of thing. It annoys me that they pretty much say Christian is the way he is because of a messed up childhood, but all in all.. it was good entertainment and I'm excited for the second one!

Leigh asked:

When is life going to get back to normal so I can visit more often?

Lol, hopefully SOON! ASAP! Work is slowing down, but other things are picking up, so it'll be a tough balance, but I think I'll have more time to come visit than I have lately! :)

SheandHim asked:

What is one place I'd love to shop if money wasn't an object? And, what is my favorite kind of implement for play?

The shopping question is not fair.. I can't pick one place!! Lol, Colin will tell you I'm a ridiculous shopper. I especially love makeup and clothes, so if money wasn't an object I'd so crazy at either Sephora or Urban outfitters!

As for the implement.. I love the belt. There's just something really sexy about it!

Roz asked:

What direction would I like to see my dynamic take, and who is someone I admire and why?

I'd love for ttwd to be present more often. When it comes to little things such as deciding where we eat, or what movie we're going to see. I guess I'd really like for him to have more of a say in every day things. I guess just more Dominance from him, and more submission from me to sum it up. :)

As for who I admire? My parents. I'm so lucky to have such amazing, supportive, loving parents. Honestly, I can't even put into words what they mean to me. Also, Colin. He works so hard, is so supportive, loyal, caring, and just an amazing man who I have so much respect for.

Thanks everyone for the questions! There's still a little bit time left in March, so if anyone has any other questions for either of us, feel free to ask. :)

Some Eye Candy & Christian Grey Disappointment

TTWD isn't exactly back to where i'd like it to be yet, but that's no ones fault. Colin has been working extremely long hours, and we just haven't had much time for anything DD related. I know things will eventually settle down, and get back to normal, and I love him for always reminding me of that. He told me we need to go over the rules again, I have to get back into my submissive mind set, and I have to start answering him properly. Yes Sir, No Sir, etc. Now we just need the time to be able to .. get back on track.

For now, I thought rather than rambling on about the same old stuff, i'd do a little eye candy post.

Update to this post: I am extremely disappointed in the Christian Grey announcement that was just recently made. Jamie Dornan has been cast as the new Mr.Grey. I don't know what is wrong with whoever chose this one, but I have yet to come across a picture, where this man looks even a little bit, like someone who could play Christian. In fact, he really reminds me of the actor from house, the exact opposite of Christian Grey in my mind. On the left is Hugh Laurie from House, on the right is Jamie Dorner, the new Christian Grey. Blah!

Enjoy the photos. ;)

I love this one!

Very true!

Yes, Sir!

Hmm, I kind of agree.

Being spanked with someone else.

Her reactions. His arm. Nice.

Um, Hot!

Interesting position. Scary paddle!

I think we've all done this a time or two!

Holding her hand in place.

Hope you liked them! Any favorites? :) Also, what do you guys think of the new Christian? I actually came across ONE photo where he looks like he could pull it off, so maybe they'll pull their movie magic? I'm not sure I even want to see the movie at this point!

Fifty Shades official leads!

Ahhh say it isnt so!!

Just read that Charlie Hunnam and Dakota Johnson have officially been announced as the lead roles in the Fifty Shades of Grey film(s)

Personally I do not see it at all! She just doesnt look the part and he is NOT Christian to me. Tarzan? Maybe. Christian Grey? HELL NO.

Ill have to go watch Matt Bomer shake it in Magic Mike and pretend this news isnt true!!

How about you guys? I know a lot of people like him so im curious to see what everyone thinks! :)

Just sayin ;)

Need an excuse to get out of a spanking?

So we started boot camp this morning, and even though it got off to a rocky start, (i'll be writing more about that when boot camp is over and I can write about the whole thing) I think it's going to be really good for us.

Colin went out to do some errands that needed to be done, leaving me to write down all the rules/assignments of boot camp so that we have it written down and know what to do.  I got all that done, so I thought i'd write a fun entry.

I noticed on Lea's blog that she has written some fun things, and it gave me the idea to write this one.

Ya know how we sometimes just .. blank and do something that probably wasn't the best idea?  We'll then get that look, and right away try to come up with some kind of excuse?  Well, I figured i'd write a list of excuses for next time you need to get out of a spanking for any of these things.  Oh, and use them at your own risk, because if the spanking ends up being even harder because of it, I don't want anyone running back and blaming me for it. :p

Incident number 1: "The eye roll." Because, sometimes it just .. happens.
The Dom/HoH says: Did you really just roll your eyes at me? *Of course for them, they could use this as a cause for a spanking.*
Your response: I wasn't rolling my eyes, the ceiling is dirty and I was going to suggest you might want to clean it. :)

Did you just roll your eyes at me?

 Incident number 2: "NO!" Usually saying no to the Dom/HoH is not the smartest thing to do.  Whether it be when we're supposed to get into position for a spanking, go to the corner, or just being told what to do.
The Dom/HoH says: "Did you just tell me no?!"
Your response: Of course not.  You cut me off before I was done .. what I was trying to say was .. "No problem, Sir.. right away."

Incident number 3: "Turning around while in the corner, or not staying in the corner."  Because, come on .. it's not that simple to just stand there and stare at the wall.
The Dom/HoH says: "Did I tell you it was time to come out?" Or, "Did I say you could turn around?"
Your response: YOU try standing in the corner for 5 minutes, staring at a wall, and then tell me how easy it is ... that wasn't rhetorical you know, go ahead .. stand there.

Incident number 4: They ask you what they said would happen if you did ___ or didn't do ___.  I hate answering this one, so I try my best to avoid it.
The Dom/HoH says: "I'm waiting for an answer, what did I say would happen?"
Your response: Okay, lets work on this memory issue of yours .. i'm going to help you out this one time, but next time I expect you to remember on your own. :)

And that's that.  Trust me, I will not be saying any of these things or making any smart ass comments during this weekend.  Colin has really shown me that the boot camp thing is going to be taken seriously.  So now that I got the fun little post written and done, time to be serious about it.  Wish me luck!

As Mr. Christian Grey would say - Laters, Baby. :)

Not questioning him anymore. Plus a little bit of Christian Grey.

  *What I thought was going to be a quick little update, turned into a freakin novel, so if you'd rather just skim through, feel free.* :)

Had a long talk with Colin last night/today about ttwd and how to make it work.  He came home last night and I immediately was waiting for him to bring up the things I hadn't done.  In the wayyy beginning of this, i'd do little things to "test him" in a way, and I didn't want him to think me not doing a few things I was supposed to, was me testing him.  I've learned that as much as I have a tendency to want to push a little bit here and there, to see if he'll stick to things, it's probably the worst way to go about it.  I don't want to play head games, or purposely do something wrong - not the way I want this to go, i'd rather just be open and honest with him and also just trust him 100 percent.  Trust that he doesn't think this is stupid, and trust that he will step up to the dom-plate when it's necessary.

So anyway, when he came home and was complaining about how tired he was, yet wanted to watch an hour long show before bed (yet never so much as mentioned the rules or how I did with them - let alone any kind of consequence) I started to get a little annoyed.  In my head, that translated to:

"Ok.. well.. actions speak louder than words, and if he says there will be consequences, but doesn't SHOW any consequences, he must not really want this."  I guess for me, it was just such a hard, emotional thing for me to bring up ttwd/dd/ds/spanking, that sometimes I automatically go into that "he thinks this is stupid mode."  Last night was one of those nights.  I ended up having a little bit of a melt down, and kind of lost it.  Said some not so nice things, and went in the other room .. lightly slamming shutting the door of course.  I sat there for a bit, so annoyed at him for not sticking to the consequences, and then I get a text from him.  *He's right next door, in the other room, but I had told him I needed space for a bit.*  The text made me pretty much speechless, which is pretty rare for me.

Text from Colin: "Maybe you should go read your blog again."  And then he copied the part where I wrote about how I just need to give in and not just automatically run away from the situation, slamming the door as I go.

For some reason, that meant a lot to me.  I hadn't known he read the blog entry at that point, so it just showed me that he really does care, and he really does WANT this.  So anyway, after a long exhausting night of being upset and talking it out, we got to a pretty good place.  His whole thing was that he was so tired from working all day (the man works like a horse, and I respect the hell out of him for it) so he thought i'd need some 30 minute long spanking to prove he was going to step up.  I explained how that's not the case, and honestly all I needed from him, was something as simple as:

"So the rules weren't exactly followed today were they?  You're lucky, because i'm exhausted tonight, but that doesn't mean this will go unnoticed.  We'll deal with any punishments this weekend."

Sure, I think some spankings/punishments should happen on the spot, if possible, BUT I totally understand that life gets in the way and it can't always happen like that.  As long as I know he's not just all talk, i'll be fine.  So i'm done questioning his dominance, i'm done questioning whether or not he thinks this is stupid, and i'm done questioning whether or not he'll stick to punishments.  It's in his hands, he has my trust, I have faith in him, and that's that.  I say I want him to step up to the plate with him being dominant, well now it's time for me to step up to the plate when it comes to being submissive.  We both need to put effort into it, not just him.

Communication really is the key.  He told me that we'll be dealing with some of the issues tonight, which will include spanking, but the poor guy is still working, so if he's exhausted when he gets home, I want to let him know that if it needs to wait, it's fine by me.  I trust it will happen when he wants it to happen, and that's all I need.  Now, if he let it go for good, that'd be a different story.  I hate the way I talked to him last night, and the things I said to him, and honestly I do deserve a spanking for it - something he will not hear from me very often ;) - so as long as he handles it, rather than forgetting about it completely, then we'll be fine.  I'm starting to really believe this whole DD thing can work with us.  :)

Hope everyone has a good weekend!

And a video that I found today, which I thought was pretty funny .. hope you get a laugh out of it too!

*If you continue reading my blog, you'll come to realize that I have a huge crush on Matt Bomer/Christian Grey.  The book itself, not my favorite when it came to the writing or the way D/s was portrayed, but Christian on the other hand, especially when I envision him as Matt Bomer - um, yum.  So here's a little CG/MB eye candy!*

Tell me this is not Mr.Grey...